"The Beginning"
Photo of my 1st year 1st term grades. Failing 3 courses (Algebra, Trigonometry & Chemistry I)
1.00 = Excellent
1.25 = Superior
1.50 = Very Good
1.75 =Good
2.00 = Meritorious
2.25 = Very Satisfactory
2.50 = Satisfactory
2.75 = Fairly Satisfactory
3.00 = Passing
5.00 = Failed
7.00 = Incomplete
9.00 = Dropped
This was the result of my first time as an undergraduate pursuing an engineering degree. It totally shocked me and I felt sad. I wasn't expecting it to be this harsh. Why? I have never thought of college especially under an engineering field to be this hard. I didn't suck at math during my high school but still I have failed two maths plus an additional of one science which is chemistry. This made me think of what I am on. I was so depressed of what I saw and I had a lot of thoughts on my mind every night.
The 1st year second term started. I have every intention on my mind to pass those that I have failed and did what I can do to pass. As a result I have passed on Algebra but not on the remaining two. I was again thinking, was my effort not enough? Am I missing on some parts?
Then the 1st year third term started. This time I didn't take chemistry so I could focus on math. As the term ended I saw the results. I got a very high grade on math which is 1.25 but I failed on a new course which is on Engineering Drawing Graphics & Design. I was a little a happy but most is depressed because of failing on a new course. I though I will not fail anymore but again I failed. New thoughts were piling up above my head as the enrollment for the new term comes.
Now the enrollment starts for the 4th term. I was utilizing the thoughts on my head and have been asking myself repeatedly on what I really want. I suddenly thought that I should be able to improve myself a lot and aim not for the passing. And so challenged myself and took 4 maths (Plane & Solid Mensuration, Analytic Geometry, Linear Algebra, Matlab) and the other two which I failed (Chemistry I and Engineering Drawing). I was really nervous as the term starts. But, I kept my focus on the challenge to myself and so as the term ended this was the result...
Photo of 1st year 4th term grades
Yes, finally! I passed on every course I had during this term and I've successfully nailed the challenge to myself. I was very happy for the first time of my life on college. It was unbelievable for me because I just finished off a very difficult term. And so I have gained confidence on myself and continued to have no failures with the succeeding 2nd year 1st term.
After the 2nd year 1st term, things got a little bit back on bad scenarios again. I have failed two courses on the succeeding term (2nd term). This time, it was on Integral Calculus and Logic. It was due to my over confidence. I have been thinking Logic would be a very easy course to take because it is labeled as minor, but I was mistaken. It was the hardest minor I ever had, EVER! And so, failing on it making me look like a fool. On the other hand, which is on mathematics. Due to the confidence explosion to myself I have not given enough attention on studying my new math, thinking it would be an easy pass. As a result, I have failed.
And so the story goes on with the other term coming up which is the 3rd term. This time I took Integral Calculus but no Logic. I took math seriously and have given attention on every single topic we had on the course syllabus. But I had given less attention on my new minor which is Philosophy. I though it would be just a reading and reciting and writing class, well actually it was but it was the 2nd hardest minor Ever! We discuss things not on an average level and we had exams not for an average level. It was harsh. The term ended and I passed on math with a high mark but I have failed on Philosophy. During that time I knew there was something wrong with me. Something wasn't enough. I was trying to figure out to myself what it was..
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